I have been home from Kenya for over 6 months now. I asked myself before I left in November how I would be different. Many people who experience something so different from what they are used to like I did changes them greatly. I have asked myself if I am any different, either for the good or bad. I asked some people close to me after a few months of being home if they noticed any change. According to them... not really. Let me just say that I went to Kenya twice before, but just for two weeks. That is much different than living there for 3 months. However, I do not feel like I have changed much. Have my habits changed? Don't think so. Do I think about Kenya more? Yes. In particular all the people I grew close to. I miss them very much. My outlook on things have not changed much. I do not know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I like to think that it is somewhat good because hopefully I have always had the correct outlook on things. It could be bad because maybe I did not grow at all from my experiences. Have my actions changed? I don't think so. This is what I am not particularly happy about. When I was there I had a lot of time to think about what I could do when I got home. I need to read through some of the stuff I wrote to remind myself of the how I wanted to change certain things in my life, take some action to help my friends in Kenya, be innovative and change how people view the world. I think I have failed at some of these things. I have not done anything to help my Kenyan friends. No new action has been taken. I almost feel like if you were an outsider watching this you might think that I just up and left them, forgetting about everything that we experienced together.
So what am I going to do about it? I am going to read through my thoughts and act upon some of them. I know I had some lofty goals (maybe not so lofty) and do something. I do not know what.